I couldn’t comprehend this was happening to me.
One minute my little girl is right beside me.
The next minute she is gone…
I ask myself through tears, “Will I ever see her smiling face again?”
I think about the days leading up to this moment …
The days I got upset with her for little things that really never mattered.
For making a mess with her toys and not wanting to pick them up when it was time.
She was driving me crazy fighting with her little brother.
Not eating her food and spilling her milk.
All I wanted was a break from my little girl…
How I wished I could go back in time…
- I would help her pick up the toys, teaching her the easiest way to do it singing while we worked.
- I would teach her how to fight nice with her little brother, then hug her with all my heart.
- I would know that when she got hunger she would eat, as for the spilled milk it would have been a lesson teaching her how to clean it up. Instead of me getting angry and cleaning it up.
- I would realize that I didn’t need a break from her, but she may need one from me, because I am always concentrating on the wrong moment and things.
Not the moments of laughter and silly funny things she does…
- Like playing with her dolls, talking to them like they are a group of girls together.
- When she stops what she is doing and gives me a big hug saying, “I Love You Mommy.”
- All those little moments of learning she goes through every day.
- Seeing those little hand prints on my sliding glass door and getting out the Windex to clean them and the refrigerator door, because she is always curious.
(I remember the time she opened the refrigerator door and the light was out. She looked inside asking the food if they could see and what they were doing. I stood there in the distance smiling at her imagination, and innocents.)
- The sound of those little feet running from her brother and even me at times, laughing all the way. Oh what a beautiful sound it was to hear the pitter patter of those little feet.
- I miss the little noises when she is around and the sweet smell of her hair.
Dear God I forgot to pay attention to those precious little things…
This can’t be happening I say…
I was doing everything wrong with my little girl…
I forgot to have fun with her…
Learn from her; how wonderful life is and full of mystery…
My heart is aching for another chance to change the time I had with my little girl.
- To love her, cherish her as a person.
- To stop and listen to her; getting to know who she really is.
- Concentrating on the right things about my little girl, not the mistakes she makes or the times I had to tell her to do something twice or three times.
- I ask myself, “Why wasn’t I more patient with her?”
God please find her; let her be OK, give me another chance to be the mother you want me to be. I have learned my lesson about what is important and what isn’t.
I have learned my lesson when it comes to the battles to pick with her and what isn’t going to make a difference a day or week from now.
Please give me another chance to make things right…
I lay here in bed crying, praying that this nightmare would end.
Please God give my little girl back.
I promise to be the best mother I can, yes I will make mistakes, but I can and will be better.
Please, please give her back to me. Give me another chance.
Suddenly I felt this shaking and someone saying,
“Wake up, wake up!”
I wake up to my husband shaking me; realizing this is a dream.
As I lay there crying; repeating over and over…
“Thank you, thank you for letting this be a nightmare.”
Now I run to her bedroom checking on her; making sure she is really there.
I lean down; smelling her hair, kissing her as my tears drip down on her pillow. Tears of relief and joy.
I realize this wasn’t a nightmare, but a wakeup call I shall forever be grateful for.
You see I am the lucky one, my child was not abducted (only in my dream), I learned from it and had a second chance.
I had a second chance to really enjoy that little girl I lost in my dream; learning what is really important when it comes to our kids.
They are the most precious things you can every have in your life.
As a parent we can learn so much from them when we take the time….
- Watch them every day…
- Listen to them when they play…
- Look at them when they are sleeping…
- Love them when they make mistakes, because they are only learning…
- Never abandoning them….(Unless they are still living with you at the age of 40 and they can take care of themselves)
Our children are our future; help them learn to build a good future for themselves.
- Loving them and letting them know how much they are loved.
- Teach them to respect themselves and others by your example.
- Teach them it is people that are important and relationships, not material things.
- Teach them to be humble and grateful.
- Teach them we are all different and this is wonderful.
- Teach them that life is a gift to enjoy by living it with happiness and understanding.
- Teach them to treat others like they want to be treated.
Ok, let’s be honest here…
As a parent we are all going to make mistakes, there are going to be days our kids drive us crazy. When those days hit keep smiling finding the positive in them.
As long as we love our kids; understanding no one is perfect, they are going to come out OK!
So start enjoying your kids, take the time to enjoy and laugh about those little things that aren’t going to matter in an hour, a day or even a week.
You will be amazed that when it comes to putting them to bed at night you can do it with a happy smile on your face, instead of a look that says, “Sure glad that day is over.”
Remember there are NO guarantees in life, we take it one day at a time making the most out of every minute. Don’t wait for a life crisis to wake you up and miss the real fun of raising your kids.
P.S. By the way don’t forget about all those electronic devices that interfere with really paying attention to your kids.
Those phone calls that can wait.
Those text messages that don’t need answered right away.
Facebook, Twitter and Pinterest are always going to be there when they are sleeping or in school.
It’s your turn now…
Are you enjoying your kids…
or riding out the storm day after day until they are on their own?